July 2010
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back again!
i fell off the wagon again. but i’m also getting back on the wagon again.
i have a half marathon on august 1st that i haven’t been training for. i haven’t worked out/ate healthily aka taken care of myself regularly in, oh, about three months. which is actually alright because the last time i fell off the wagon, it took me technically a year, but in reality three years to get...
May 2010
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guess who's back?
i’m back after a 5 week hiatus. 5 weeks of emotional eating and no exercise means that i’m back to 180 pounds. scary, huh?
i can’t believe it’s may already! it’s so silly because when i fall off the wagon like i did these past few weeks, i’m not happy, and i’m not living life. however, when i’m exercising regularly and eating healthy, i have a...
April 2010
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mangochickens asked: I was going to ask the same thing kittystardust did! Just hop back on, baby steps. Even if you've gained 20 million pounds (which I'm sure you haven't), it's a good step to just start keeping track again.
and also I miss you! (in a non creepy internet tumblr crush kind of way)
and also I miss you! (in a non creepy internet tumblr crush kind of way)
kittystardust asked: Where are yooooou? :(
March 2010
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i just ate four kashi dark chocolate with coconut granola bars and feel quite sick now. i want to go for a run tonight, but feeling a little nauseated.
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i stepped on the scale this morning to sneak a little peek and saw 161. down .6 pounds since monday and am kind of disappointed.
and that’s why the scale is my friend and my enemy. it helps affirm or confirm when i’m doing well or not so well, but it’s also become my fixation during this weight loss journey. i should be happy (and part of me is) that i’ve lost weight...
fuckyeahhealth →
am digging this blog. all the pretty pictures of fruits and vegetables is helping keep me on the right track.
“You may not be there yet, but you’re closer than you were yesterday.”
– (via findingfit) (via enoughfluff) (via thinnerpeace) (via startinganewlife) (via ninetydays)
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it kinda makes me happy and a little proud of myself that 5k is a regular weekly run instead of a goal. i’m hoping that one day i’ll feel that way about a five mile run.
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3.2 miles in 38 minutes and fiiiiive seconds. 11:54 pace!
time for a nice long stretch =]
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Would love to skip the gym tonight
seejanerum:
But this smug motherfucker is mocking me: http://www.amazon.com/What-About-Running-Vintage-International/dp/0307389839/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1269309111&sr=8-1
Just kidding! Love you (except for your title)! Want to have your babies!
lurve murakami, and i forgot about this book. i’m going to have to check it out, thanks for the reminder =]
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phaaaase 2 - second weigh in
starting weight - 187.4 pounds
last weigh-in - 175.2
current weight - 161.6
squishyness lost from last weigh-in - 13.6 pounds
total squishyness lost - 25.8 pounds!
i haven’t weighed myself since march 1, and i have to admit that i was hoping to see the 150s on the scale or at least 160 because that’s how i feel. but i realize that i feel 160 because i just ran an 8k in 58 minutes...
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Under Construction: Self-Inflicted Misery →
It has been MONTHS since I last wrote. As usual, when I do poorly or fail, I stop writing, despite all my claims that I will write about the good and the bad.
Last October”ish”, I was dealing with some pretty bad back problems that have continued through today. My doctors told me NOT to exercise…
i struggle with these feelings every month. i’ve fallen off the proverbial wagon and...
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tentative fitness schedule for the week:
monday: 1.6 miles run, strength training biceps & triceps
tuesday: core strength training
wednesday: 3.2 mile run
thursday: rest
friday: 3.2 mile run
saturday: rest or strength training shoulders, chest, & back
sunday: 5 mile run
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i’m debating with myself whether or not i should weigh in tomorrow. i’ve been trying to avoid the scale because i was getting too stressed out about my weekly weigh-ins. but i think it might be a good idea to start weighing myself regularly just so that i can see where i slip up and where i do well. i just need to make sure not to beat myself up over the numbers.
what do yalls...
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i finished the shamrock shuffle under an hour!!!!!
something about running 5 miles with friends and 25,000 plus strangers through the streets of downtown chicago really helped fuel my run =]
and afterwards, i went to the gym with my friend m who ran the race with us. am i beast or what?!
today’s race is probably the best run i’ve had so far. i felt like i was doing something...
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shamrock shufflin tiiiime! i got this =]
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i’ve been being pretty good with eating well, incorporating my new nutrition plan, and working out. but a lot of my motivation is so that i can make it across the finish line this sunday at the shamrock shuffle.
i’m kind of nervous that i’m going to fall off the wagon again after this weekend, so i’ve been trying to think of strategies and goals to work towards after the...
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tonight is my last run before the shamrock shuffle this sunday. so excite! and nervous.
http://act.credoaction.com/sticker/queerthecensus/?... →
not weight-loss related.
but let’s queer the census, yalls. because everyone deserves to be counted.
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six months
i haven’t weighed myself since the beginning of this month, so i’m not quite sure how much i weigh right now.
i’ve been on this weight loss journey for about six months now. i almost have a 30 pound weight loss. and at first it kind of bummed me out to think that it’s taken me almost six months to lose almost 30 pounds. i thought that i would have reached my goal weight...
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i made some vegetarian chili tonight for the first time!
patpatpatting myself on the back. and it was super easy.
i just sauted some garlic and onion in some butter, then combined 3/4 cup water, 4 tablespoons of tomato paste, 1 can of kidney beans, 1 can of black beans, 1 can of tomatoes, chopped up some okra, and then seasoned it all with chili powder, cumin, oregano, salt, pepper, paprika,...
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one week till the shuffle!
theme: destress, sleep, snap out of my funky attitude, relax, chillllll
fitness plan for the week:
today: rest or if i feel up to it, strength training at the gym tonight!
tuesday: 3.6 mile run
wednesday: strength train
thursday: 3.2 mile run
friday: rest or if i feel up to it, strength training
saturday: rest
sunday: shamrock shufffffle!
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vanity post
i got a bang trim yesterday and really don’t like it. a good hair day can make you feel on top of the world and a bad hair day can make me want to hide underneath a hat for the next month and reach for the next brownie.
not going to do either though! as i hate how the hat and my hair smell at the end of the day, and i’ve got a five mile race to run this sunday and a brownie’s...
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one week of reducing carbs!
it’s been almost a week that i’ve been on this new nutrition plan. the plan emphasizes proteins and fats and limiting carbs. i really thought that i would not be able to do it. i love bread, rice, and cereal. but i’m actually digging these new nutrition guidelines. i feel more full longer, and i’m finding it easier to reduce my calories since i’m not as hungry.
...
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I Am Losing It: Am I a Runner Yet? →
After lying in bed looking out at the cold, gray sky this morning for 20 minutes, I said “Just go!”
So, I put on my jogging clothes and pulled my hair up in a pony, popped on my baseball cap and headed out the door. It was misty but not raining — and a chilly 40 degrees. But I jogged. And it felt…
you totally inspired me to run 5 miles today!
i was thinking to myself, “crap! i...
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no running tonight. my legs are pretty sore today, and i ended up doing some strength training with my shoulders and chest at the gym tonight. i’m getting super nervous about the race, but i’m not going to beat myself up about missing my running date with myself tonight. instead, i’m going to have a rain date with myself tomorrow morning. 3.6 miles!
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i haven’t ran since tuesday, my legs are sore from a strength training session that i did on wednesday, and i have a five mile race in nine days.
my plan was to run 3.6 miles, and it looks like it’s about to storm really bad.
i’m going to try to suck it up and run, and if it gets too bad, then i’ll run back and go to the gym. eeps!
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Weigh-In
ruffledmind:
Weighed in for the day
Heaviest Weight: 300lbs Starting Weight Dec ‘09: 280 Last Week’s Weigh-in: 255 Today’s Weigh-in: 254 Week’s Loss: -1lbs Total Loss: -26lbs
So, a little progress, which makes me happy!
I’m going to the gym this afternoon, and maybe for a walk if one of my walking buddies wants to go along. I need new shoes for walking; my old ones gave me blisters last time...
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hiiii new followers! good luck on your weight loss journey =] it’s no fun doing this by yourself, and i’ve found that the tumblr community has been really helpful for me. hope you find it helpful, too.
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breakfast: sliced up bananas with almond butter.
so soothing!
note to self: must use tablespoon to measure out serving next time. i don’t think i’m eyeballing it correctly…
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i want to be skinny, but i also really really want a brownie.
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yeaaaah boy!
i just ran 3.2 miles tonight in 40 minutes! it’s not my personal best, but it felt freakin fantastic. i’ve been bummed out because my running skills have really decreased during my three week break/binge, but it’s great to know how fast they can build back up, too =]
i haven’t weighed myself since last monday. and i don’t really want to for a while. i’m...
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i got a date with me!
my tentative workout schedule for the week:
monday: 3.2 mile run
tuesday: strength training biceps & triceps, 1.6 mile run
wednesday: strength training legs
thursday: strength training shoulders & chest or rest
friday: 3.6 mile run
saturday: 2 mile run & strength training biceps & triceps
sunday: 4 mile run
the shamrock shuffle is soooo close, and i don’t want my...
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lovely sunday
already done today:
3.2 miles in 43 minutes! (13:26 pace)
streeeeetch!
apple!
to doooo:
strength training shoulders & chest at the gym
eat a yummy post workout snack of banana and almond butter
shower
do my hurr
make a yummy proteinlicious lunch
trade with joe (cash for some nutritious and affordable food)
laundry
do my nails (gotta have pretty nails for weight lifting)
take in...
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Shopping & Eating
skinnyambition:
I bought my first ever top from Forever 21. It was exciting! I have been there countless times over the years just circling the accessory tables and checking out handbags while my thin friends tried on and bought clothes. This was a big deal for me! Then I went to Target and got myself a pair of 5 pound weights..
Eating, I’m back 100%!
Breakfast: oatmeal & apple
Lunch:...
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my nutritionist’s reasoning behind the new nutrition plan:
protein and fat helps keep me full and satiated. i’ve been eating a lot of carbs, good ones and those bad refined ones, and they’ve been taking my system on a rollercoaster ride.
she didn’t say it, but i think that the sugar crashes from my carbalicious diet also contributed to my binges.
so how’s it going...
Two Squishy Girls: new nutrition plan →
imjohana:
i had a good 2.8 mile run last night! my legs still feel pretty heavy and tight, but i’m hoping that they’ll get looser and faster over this next week. 2 more weeks till the shamrock shuffle! ahhh!… i’m super nervous.
i’m also trying out a new nutrition plan today for a week. it’s focusing on…
the primal way! I’m doing that as well! At first it was daunting to think no grains,...
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new nutrition plan
i had a good 2.8 mile run last night! my legs still feel pretty heavy and tight, but i’m hoping that they’ll get looser and faster over this next week. 2 more weeks till the shamrock shuffle! ahhh!… i’m super nervous.
i’m also trying out a new nutrition plan today for a week. it’s focusing on protein and fats and limiting or even avoiding grains, starches,...
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i’ve ran three times this week, and none of them have been great runs. i’m getting really nervous about running my 8k/5 mile race on the 24th =/
on the up side, the embarassment of not finishing the race is preventing me from binging.
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i went for a two mile run tonight!
i started out thinking, “oh boy! i forgot how much i enjoy this and how easy it’s coming back.” ten minutes later, and my body (especially my calves) are tensing up, and i can hear my breathing over my mp3 player.
i finished my run in 30 minutes, which is a 15 minute mile pace. not exactly spectacular, and i walked a lot of the run, but...
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about to go for my first run in nearly three weeks. kinda nervous and not sure what to expect. just one foot in front of the other, right?
ruh roh!
up 177.4 pounds! eeks. new month, new day. back on the wagon today. i have a date with myself tonight to run.
February 2010
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phase 2 day 2
i’ve been eating pretty healthily today and yesterday. i haven’t worked out yet, and i’m trying not to beat myself up too much over it. i’m finding it a lot more difficult to get back on the proverbial wagon, but i think that once i start working out, it’ll become easier.
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phase 2 day 1
after many posts claiming that i was back on the wagon, i’m coming back to tumblr with my hypothetical tail between my legs.
i weighed in 175.2 pounds today. definitely a bummer, but i’m realizing how silly it is to mope about my weight gain and cope with it with more food and no exercise.
today is two weeks after i fell off the wagon. today is the day that i’m back on the...
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a constant battle to healthy: Two Squishy Girls:... →
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I completely understand. I am struggling every day with my terrible instincts to binge and just keep going and going and going and how terrible I feel afterwards.
But, you are still lower than when you started. 14 pounds less! Which is still great. And you already have been down in the 150’s,…
thank you so much for this =] you’re right… we do know how to lose...
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ergh, so i didn’t start yesterday like i said i was going to.
today, the scale said 178.2. yeah, wake up call… helloooo h.
thank you for all the support guys. i’m making a list of reasons why i want to do this and emailing them to myself.
glamourandgrace-deactivated2011 asked: http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/binge-eating-disorder/
http://www.amazon.com/Eating-Light-Moon-Anita-Johnston/dp/1559723327/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1266776389&sr=1-1
http://www.amazon.com/Good-Eater-Struggle-Eating-Disorder/dp/1572244852/ref=sr_1_5?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1266776389&sr=1-5
http://www.amazon.com/Eating-Light-Moon-Anita-Johnston/dp/1559723327/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1266776389&sr=1-1
http://www.amazon.com/Good-Eater-Struggle-Eating-Disorder/dp/1572244852/ref=sr_1_5?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1266776389&sr=1-5
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weigh in #32
starting weight - 187.4 pounds
last weigh in - 156 pounds
current weight - 173.4 pounds
squishyness gain from last weigh in - 17.4 pounds
total squishyness lost - 14 pounds
i’ve gained nearly 20 pounds in the last two weeks because i’ve been binging. no purging. every time i think i have it under control (usually for three weeks or so), i lose it.
it’s been really...
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up to 173.4 pounds. yikes. fell off the wagon again for, oh, about a week. i’m going to have to go through the 170s and 160s again, for the frickin fourth time. seriously, when am i going to stop doing this to myself?
