February 2010
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phase 2 day 2
i’ve been eating pretty healthily today and yesterday. i haven’t worked out yet, and i’m trying not to beat myself up too much over it. i’m finding it a lot more difficult to get back on the proverbial wagon, but i think that once i start working out, it’ll become easier.
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phase 2 day 1
after many posts claiming that i was back on the wagon, i’m coming back to tumblr with my hypothetical tail between my legs.
i weighed in 175.2 pounds today. definitely a bummer, but i’m realizing how silly it is to mope about my weight gain and cope with it with more food and no exercise.
today is two weeks after i fell off the wagon. today is the day that i’m back on the...
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a constant battle to healthy: Two Squishy Girls:... →
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I completely understand. I am struggling every day with my terrible instincts to binge and just keep going and going and going and how terrible I feel afterwards.
But, you are still lower than when you started. 14 pounds less! Which is still great. And you already have been down in the 150’s,…
thank you so much for this =] you’re right… we do know how to lose...
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ergh, so i didn’t start yesterday like i said i was going to.
today, the scale said 178.2. yeah, wake up call… helloooo h.
thank you for all the support guys. i’m making a list of reasons why i want to do this and emailing them to myself.
glamourandgrace-deactivated2011 asked: http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/binge-eating-disorder/
http://www.amazon.com/Eating-Light-Moon-Anita-Johnston/dp/1559723327/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1266776389&sr=1-1
http://www.amazon.com/Good-Eater-Struggle-Eating-Disorder/dp/1572244852/ref=sr_1_5?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1266776389&sr=1-5
http://www.amazon.com/Eating-Light-Moon-Anita-Johnston/dp/1559723327/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1266776389&sr=1-1
http://www.amazon.com/Good-Eater-Struggle-Eating-Disorder/dp/1572244852/ref=sr_1_5?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1266776389&sr=1-5
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weigh in #32
starting weight - 187.4 pounds
last weigh in - 156 pounds
current weight - 173.4 pounds
squishyness gain from last weigh in - 17.4 pounds
total squishyness lost - 14 pounds
i’ve gained nearly 20 pounds in the last two weeks because i’ve been binging. no purging. every time i think i have it under control (usually for three weeks or so), i lose it.
it’s been really...
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up to 173.4 pounds. yikes. fell off the wagon again for, oh, about a week. i’m going to have to go through the 170s and 160s again, for the frickin fourth time. seriously, when am i going to stop doing this to myself?
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up 167.2 pounds. yikes. bleh.
note to self - you need to make a relapse prevention plan and identify triggers for cravings and binge eating.
true or false - i didn’t stop today.
truth. =[
up to 164.2 pounds today. and i still want flour and sugar concoctions. sigh.
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welp, i made it almost three weeks without stress/binge/emotional eating. scared to see the scale int he morning. and i want to wear my pretty nye dress to this fundraising event for work this weekend! all my unhealthy eating bloat goes straight to my face and to my middle. bleh. back on the wagon, not tomorrow, but right now.
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bleh. pms/stress/emotional/binge eating continues.
thanks for the sweet answer, sheonlygets better.
and to get the question/answer thing, just make sure that the least sentence that you type in the post is a question with a question mark. there should be something that appears on the right side of your post that says “let people answer.” check that, and there you go! =] welcome to tumblr lady!
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up to 159.8 pounds today.
3 pounds in one day. and i still have cravings.
what do i do? =/
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when pms strikes
so i know how to address my .8 pound weight gain since sunday… i’ll let my pms hunger take over!
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thank you for the encouragement and advice tumblrs =] one of you pointed out that it may be due to my aunt flo who is due to arrive in one week. i’m kind of nervous because i usually prepare for miss flo’s arrival with lots of carbs, cheese, and sweets… yikes.
but yalls are right, it’s just a gain, and if i’ve made it through the 180s, the 170s, and the 160s...
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h - weigh in wednesday
last weigh in wednesday - 158.2 pounds
today’s weigh in wednesday - 156.8 pounds
this made me feel a big happier to see that i’m still down 1.4 pounds, even though i’m up .8 pounds from my official weigh in on sunday. sundays are my official weigh in days, and i like weighing in on wednesdays because most of you tumblrs do it =] and because it gives me a little heads up on how...
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there’s about 6-8 inches of snow on the ground, and all i want is some fried rice & veggie egg foo young. if i go to the gym, i just might stop thinking about my craving. or if i go to the gym, i’ll feel a little more justified to indulge. either way, it means i have to go to the gym.
i really need to start changing my thinking to i get to go to the gym rather than i have to go...
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i really didn’t want to run tonight, but i forced myself to. it definitely was not one of those forrest gump type of runs. i ran 3.6 miles in 46 minutes and took a couple walking breaks.
i just felt really tired today even though i got 8 hours of sleep last night. and i really want some nachos with a side of yellow cupcake topped with vanilla frosting and fudge brownie for dessert. and...
binging
iwantlove:
it’s been a long time since i’ve really binged. not the extra-cookies-after-midnight binge or the family-get-together-on-thanksgiving binge, because those aren’t a big deal. i’m talking about those massive weeks-of-dieting-down-the-drain binges that literally set you back months.
the last time i really went crazy was before my diet - and never after, which is surprising to me. on my...
i really don’t want to run tonight. but i lost three pounds by increasing my running mileage last week. but i’d rather just stay home and eat candy for dinner. hmph.
It's My Birthday (Week), But You Get the Presents!
losingweightinthecity:
(Adorable photo via Flickr)
My 27th birthday (ah!) is Thursday, but that doesn’t mean I get to have all of the fun!
All of my wonderful readers are part of what made my 26th year on this earth such a fabulous one. (Losing 50 pounds didn’t hurt, either!)
I contacted a few of my favorite brands a few weeks ago to see if they’d be interested in sponsoring some giveaways...
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h - weigh in #31
starting weight - 187.4 pounds
last weigh-in - 159 pounds
current weight - 156.0 pounds!!! =]
squishyness lost from last weigh in - 3 pounds!
total squishyness lost - 31.4 pounds yippee!
i can’t believe i’ve reached the 30 pound milestone! and i can’t believe i’ve lost 3 pounds this week. a big squishy part of me doesn’t want to get too excited about it all...
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corn syrup really is lurking in everything. it’s in my skippy chunky peanut butter! boo.
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i went to the gym this morning and did some strength training with my legs.
note to h - i hate doing strength training with my legs, but i am going to love having toned and not as cellulitey and squishy legs more!
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Saturday Morning Weigh In: Consequences
onemanschoices:
Yeah so I have been eating very badly the past week. And I have done almost no exercise. I still didn’t think things would be this bad. In fact, I actually did a double take and weighed myself again - you know, because maybe there was some freak error in the reading due to sun spot activity, the passing of a comet or other such SCIENTIFIC FACTORS…
Date Weight (lbs) ...
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i think i might be in between sizes right now which is annoying but also exciting =] my size 12 jeans are kind of loose and bunchy, but the next size down creates a very unflattering muffintop.
i put away my old size 14 jeans and took out my older size 10 jeans. the old size 14s are in a crate with clothes that don’t fit because i’m still too squishy, and the size 10 jeans are out...
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h - 4.6 miles! =]
i just ran 4.6 miles tonight!!! i was planning on running 3 miles, but as i was getting close to my apartment, which was the 3 mile mark, i decided to keep on going. i finished it in 1 hour 3 minutes, which is a 13:55 pace.
and i did it all in the snow! i’m still really squishy and have a lot of squishyness to lose, but i feel pretty proud of myself for being able to run 4.6 miles and...
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it’s currently around 34 degrees in chicago and flurrying. there’s about an inch or two on the ground. i will not let the weather keep me from running. i will not let the weather keep me from running.
i am going to run.
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the people that i have been babysitting for for the past three years had me over to their new home for supper last night. their daughter just turned five years old, and they recently welcomed home their baby boy that they adopted from taiwan. i brought home with me some drawings, and i thought probably some extra squishyness from a yummy dinner of spaghetti and cupcakes. (i think i could write...
diaryofaformersf:
I love that I ended up having a mini-binge the day after I mention that I don’t really get the urge to do so anymore.
Major. Fail.
i think i’ve lost track of the number of times where i feel so confident in my progress one day only to eat my feelings or overindulge in my cravings the next. don’t worry lady! you’ve come such a long way =]
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h - 4 miles personal record!
i got two personal records tonight!
i ran 4 miles tonight in 50 minutes, which is a 12:30 pace =] i thought for sure too that i was going to be slower than the first time i ran 4 miles, which was in 55 minutes.
the other personal record that i am more proud of though is that i didn’t eat my feelings tonight. i had a kind of emotional day at work… kind of emotional past few...
“and the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than...”
– anais nin
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h - weigh in wednesday!
158.2!
this is the lowest number that i’ve seen on the scale since i’ve started this weight loss journey =] i’m hoping that this weight loss will last. i’m going to the family’s house that i baby sit for for dinner tomorrow night, and i’m hoping that i will eat healthy portions. i’ve also been kind of stressed this week about work. i love my job, so...
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i bought some protein mix at trader joe’s over the weekend called designer whey. i know some people might think it’s silly for a squishy girl to buy protein mix, but i’m a vegetarian, and some days i don’t get enough protein! i had my first scoop this morning after my strength training workout! 100 calories of yumminess… it tasted like chocolate milk!, and helps me...
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h - personal record! 12 minute mile conquered...
i just ran 3.2 miles in 37 minutes!!!!!, which is a 11:34 pace! =]
i was going to add run a 12 minute mile to my to do list for february, and i can’t believe that i beat it and maintained it tonight! it was just one of those forrest gump kind of runs, i felt so fast and fueled during the first half of it. during the last half, i slowed down to my regular pace. i think it was because i...
