i just ate four kashi dark chocolate with coconut granola bars and feel quite sick now. i want to go for a run tonight, but feeling a little nauseated.
March 2010
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i stepped on the scale this morning to sneak a little peek and saw 161. down .6 pounds since monday and am kind of disappointed.
and that’s why the scale is my friend and my enemy. it helps affirm or confirm when i’m doing well or not so well, but it’s also become my fixation during this weight loss journey. i should be happy (and part of me is) that i’ve lost weight instead of gaining. i should be proud of myself for running the shamrock shuffle in under an hour. and i should be excited that i’m wearing my new size 10 skinny jeans and one cup smaller bra today and that they fit rather comfortably (i don’t feel like a sausage!). but for whatever reason, i’m letting this little white scale tell me how i should feel, and that’s just plain silly. especially since this unhealthy fixation is one of the triggers for me binging, which is even sillier with all its self-destruction.
so i think i’m going to take a break again from the scale. and hopefully not give in to binging or overeating. a coupla of my friends are coming into town this weekend, and i’m hoping to still make healthy choices while they’re here.
keep me on track, tumblrs? =]
fuckyeahhealth →
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am digging this blog. all the pretty pictures of fruits and vegetables is helping keep me on the right track.
“You may not be there yet, but you’re closer than you were yesterday.”
—(via findingfit) (via enoughfluff) (via thinnerpeace) (via startinganewlife) (via ninetydays)
it kinda makes me happy and a little proud of myself that 5k is a regular weekly run instead of a goal. i’m hoping that one day i’ll feel that way about a five mile run.
3.2 miles in 38 minutes and fiiiiive seconds. 11:54 pace!
time for a nice long stretch =]
Would love to skip the gym tonight
But this smug motherfucker is mocking me: http://www.amazon.com/What-About-Running-Vintage-International/dp/0307389839/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1269309111&sr=8-1
Just kidding! Love you (except for your title)! Want to have your babies!
lurve murakami, and i forgot about this book. i’m going to have to check it out, thanks for the reminder =]
phaaaase 2 - second weigh in
starting weight - 187.4 pounds
last weigh-in - 175.2
current weight - 161.6
squishyness lost from last weigh-in - 13.6 pounds
total squishyness lost - 25.8 pounds!
i haven’t weighed myself since march 1, and i have to admit that i was hoping to see the 150s on the scale or at least 160 because that’s how i feel. but i realize that i feel 160 because i just ran an 8k in 58 minutes 48 seconds, which is a 11:49 pace, i haven’t fallen off the wagon for three weeks, i bought some jeans and a bra this past weekend that are both smaller sizes than i have been wearing, and so regardless of what the scale tells me, i know that i am on the right track =]
i just need to get my mind straight and not let the scale dictate how i feel. because well, that’s just plain silly.
Under Construction: Self-Inflicted Misery →
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It has been MONTHS since I last wrote. As usual, when I do poorly or fail, I stop writing, despite all my claims that I will write about the good and the bad.
Last October”ish”, I was dealing with some pretty bad back problems that have continued through today. My doctors told me NOT to exercise…
i struggle with these feelings every month. i’ve fallen off the proverbial wagon and somehow managed to pick myself up each time. but it took almost three years before i began this journey. it’s hard, and it sucks, and it’s scary, and i can’t explain why the decision to be healthy and happy is so hard to make, but i feel you, i really do, and i know you can make it. keep on writing, it helps sort out your feelings about all of this, and i promise it will help a little because part of this is exploring who we are under all this squishyness =]
tentative fitness schedule for the week:
monday: 1.6 miles run, strength training biceps & triceps
tuesday: core strength training
wednesday: 3.2 mile run
thursday: rest
friday: 3.2 mile run
saturday: rest or strength training shoulders, chest, & back
sunday: 5 mile run
i’m debating with myself whether or not i should weigh in tomorrow. i’ve been trying to avoid the scale because i was getting too stressed out about my weekly weigh-ins. but i think it might be a good idea to start weighing myself regularly just so that i can see where i slip up and where i do well. i just need to make sure not to beat myself up over the numbers.
what do yalls think?
i finished the shamrock shuffle under an hour!!!!!
something about running 5 miles with friends and 25,000 plus strangers through the streets of downtown chicago really helped fuel my run =]
and afterwards, i went to the gym with my friend m who ran the race with us. am i beast or what?!
today’s race is probably the best run i’ve had so far. i felt like i was doing something natural, and i couldn’t help but feel a little misty eyed as i ran with a whole crowd of strangers with another crowd of strangers cheering us on.
i’m proud of myself and that feels pretty sweet.
shamrock shufflin tiiiime! i got this =]
i’ve been being pretty good with eating well, incorporating my new nutrition plan, and working out. but a lot of my motivation is so that i can make it across the finish line this sunday at the shamrock shuffle.
i’m kind of nervous that i’m going to fall off the wagon again after this weekend, so i’ve been trying to think of strategies and goals to work towards after the shuffle.
some of my ideas:
- one hundred push up challenge
- run 10k or 6.2 miles by the end of april
and… i’m out.
any suggestions yalls?
tonight is my last run before the shamrock shuffle this sunday. so excite! and nervous.
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not weight-loss related.
but let’s queer the census, yalls. because everyone deserves to be counted.
six months
i haven’t weighed myself since the beginning of this month, so i’m not quite sure how much i weigh right now.
i’ve been on this weight loss journey for about six months now. i almost have a 30 pound weight loss. and at first it kind of bummed me out to think that it’s taken me almost six months to lose almost 30 pounds. i thought that i would have reached my goal weight by now when i first started on september 29, 2009. but then i realized that i’ve been on this journey for six months now!, way longer than any of my other attempts at losing weight. i’ve stayed with my healthy lifestyle changes of making homecooked meals, going to the gym regularly, running!, and mindful eating for almost six months! and so mayhaps i’m kind of ok with not having hit my goal weight yet. slow and steady wins the race, right?
i made some vegetarian chili tonight for the first time!
patpatpatting myself on the back. and it was super easy.
i just sauted some garlic and onion in some butter, then combined 3/4 cup water, 4 tablespoons of tomato paste, 1 can of kidney beans, 1 can of black beans, 1 can of tomatoes, chopped up some okra, and then seasoned it all with chili powder, cumin, oregano, salt, pepper, paprika, and red cayenne. i’m kind of awesome =]
one week till the shuffle!
theme: destress, sleep, snap out of my funky attitude, relax, chillllll
fitness plan for the week:
today: rest or if i feel up to it, strength training at the gym tonight!
tuesday: 3.6 mile run
wednesday: strength train
thursday: 3.2 mile run
friday: rest or if i feel up to it, strength training
saturday: rest
sunday: shamrock shufffffle!
vanity post
i got a bang trim yesterday and really don’t like it. a good hair day can make you feel on top of the world and a bad hair day can make me want to hide underneath a hat for the next month and reach for the next brownie.
not going to do either though! as i hate how the hat and my hair smell at the end of the day, and i’ve got a five mile race to run this sunday and a brownie’s not going to help my squishy self cross the finish line.
instead… i’m going to make veggie chili tonight!
