phase 2 day 1

after many posts claiming that i was back on the wagon, i’m coming back to tumblr with my hypothetical tail between my legs.

i weighed in 175.2 pounds today. definitely a bummer, but i’m realizing how silly it is to mope about my weight gain and cope with it with more food and no exercise.

today is two weeks after i fell off the wagon. today is the day that i’m back on the wagon after two weeks of disgusting binging. today is marking the first day of “phase two” of my weight loss journey.

i’m calling it phase two because having a blank slate feels good and also because i’m going to try to address the mistakes and falls that i’ve made since starting my weight loss journey back on september 29, 2009.

i have a weird emotional relationship with food, which leads to me binging. i’ve been trying to process the reasons why i binged for two whole frickin weeks, and i realized that some of the reasons were because i felt like i couldn’t eat the food that i wanted to when i was eating healthy and because some days i just didn’t feel like working out. i think i became burnt out on it all, and i think i beat myself up too much when i did fail, which led to me falling even harder.

so what i’m trying to figure out with phase 2 is having a plan for myself (which i’ve found helpful in the past) while also giving myself wiggle room (not jiggle room, har har) with eating healthy and exercising.

thank you for all the support tumblrs, and i’m happy to see that you guys have been writing and been doing well! missed yalls.

also, any advice tumblrs on how to balance?